This week has been both good and not so good. I am happy to report though, that within myself I am in the best place that I have been in probably almost a year. I feel enthused about my work and confident about managing it all and getting it done – even though the tasks ahead are still a bit daunting. For the first time in a while I’m keen for opportunities to write, including this, and getting my thoughts and ideas out. Having said all this, this week was slower than I had hoped. My partner has been having a few issues with their thesis – I both would and would not encourage dating within the same industry – and so some of my focus went toward trying to help and support them this week. On a more positive note, I also got to spend a lot of time with my family this week!
Nonetheless, I’m pleased with my work on my draft. I have been actively scheduling my weeks of late so that I can manage all of the tasks I have to get done. In the past, while I spent a lot of time writing about the things I read, I would largely leave the actual draft writing and editing until I absolutely had to get it done. Lately I have been setting aside at least one day each week to go back to my draft and work on it, whether that is editing, writing sections I had been neglecting, or finally dealing with those comments that I had left for myself to eventually do something about.
Doing this has already started to bring me a greater sense of achievement with my writing than I had been feeling before. I used to somewhat dread the draft writing because it was something I was cramming together all at once but now it feels like I’m actually making steady progress which makes it a bit easier for me. It also feels more manageable when I’m looking at it as one or two days a week and a couple of tasks – write a section, deal with the comments in this section, fix the edits – than having it sit in the back of my mind and everything that has to be addressed building up into what felt like weeks and weeks worth of work.
In the end I’m probably doing the same amount of work but pacing it out is much better for me to manage. I imagine this is not necessarily new or surprising information and probably something I should have been doing the entire time. To be honest, the more the black fog that I was living in with my health lifts, the clearer I see the things folks had been telling me the whole time. This applies to a lot of things: taking care of myself, approaches to getting things done, ways to balance life and work, getting the right amount of rest and so on.
Essentially, I’m feeling really good and its allowing the work to flow and for me to appreciate the ways of working that actually help me to get things done and stay sane.